Chapter 139 - 139. Doubts And Fears
Hearing how important the mission was, Lorin\'s lips twitched as if wanting to say something but nothing came off her mouth.
"Speak, what troubles you?" asked Harlack, a bit inpatient already.
Loring gave a small sigh and said, "If the mission is that important, why put someone like me to infiltrate the Fenryr family? I have no experience in this. I\'m sure the organization has well-trained people for that."
Harlack put a smile on his face and said, "Good. That\'s a good question. I dont know if you are finally using your brain or you were just scared for your life, but it\'s a good question."
Saying that, Harlack then pondered for a brief moment, as if thinking in the correct words and said, "Tell me Lorin, what do you think about Mack? I read the reports and know what happened at trial in a resumed version, and I know he cut off you leg and fingers. But I want you to ignore that, and think about it in a more cold and rational way. Tell me, what do you think about him?"
Remembering the events that tormented her sleep every night, Lorin fell a chill down her spine, but still tried to hide it. She knew deep down that having a leg and fingers cut was a small price. Luck determined her life and death that day, and she accepted that, and because of that, she had no grunges against Mack.
"Well, he is the strongest person I know. He is cold and detached, and he doesn\'t enjoy small talks, apart from that, I really dont know much about him"
Harlack looked in Lorin\'s eyes and could not believe how someone could be so wrong about a people, even living a few days with it already and said, "All wrong. He is not the strongest person you know, he is not cold and detached, in fact, he is a very sentimental guy, a bit too much in my opinion, and he loves to make bad jokes, but he avoid talking with certain kinds of people," Harlack took a small pause and continued, "Anyway, I asked you this, to tell you that the organization don\'t think that Mack is super strong, but that he has potential, and that by itself is valuable enough to put him in this mission, but of course that doesn\'t have anything to do with you, right?"
Lorin gave a small nod as if understanding, and seeing that, Harlack continued, "That\'s where you get all wrong again. The organization works in what we call it \'cells\', apart from some special positions like the overseer, the huge body of the organization is composed of those cells that act independently of each other, and that\'s the reason why the trial only accepted fifty winners, those winners would become a few small cells or a big cell, depending on the needs of the organization at the moment and depending on how many people passed the trial."
Harlack took another pause to let Lorin absorb the information and said, "Some cells are as big as fifty people, others are small as this one, only three. But one thing that had never changed since the begin of the organization is that all cells that were formed to this date were not over 50 people, unless someone had a special job, like the pilots at the trial, the overseer, or me as a cell leader, no one that belongs to a cell would ever meet any other members of any other cell. Thats why, the moment you survived the trial, there was only one position available to you, because the organization values Mack a lot, but not because he is strong, he is not, but because he has potential to truly be strong. Do you understand now?"
Lorin didn\'t promptly answer, but pondered over the question for a few seconds. She thought that Harlack was probably testing her again. It was then, as if a lightning bolt had hit her face, she raised back her head with big eyes, and said "THAT! ... that means, I will work with you guys..... forever?"
Harlack gave a small nod, and said, "Not forever... if Mack dies.... well, how do I say that... your services will not be required anymore."
Hearing those words, Lorin could not avoid but grab the armchair while involuntarily gulping hard. Her life was bound to the life of another man, but not in a good way.
Harlack gave a fake smile and said, "But of course, if you show how much you can be worth to the organization and they need your expertise in another mission or cell, they would promote you to a cell leader, like me. Cell leaders and army positions are the exception to this. But that, of course, will only come in time, as the organization see that you accomplish missions and evaluate you better, for now, your are what you thought of yourself, unprepared and green to the job, but neither me nor you have a saying in that, we have to work with what we have"
Lorin didn\'t know the true importance of Harlack in the organization, and would never doubt his own words. Thus, she truly thought that Harlack was just a \'cell leader\' as he said himself. She barely knew that the Horus existed before being invited to the trial, and all that she knew was that the organization had a lot of money and connections. She was ignorant to the towers, to the true motto of Horus, and to the actual size of it. Lorin was ignorant as any other person who just passed the trial. All that she knew was that if Mack died, she was dead, too.
"I understand. I will give my best to accomplish the mission, " said Lorin, raising from the chair and giving a small bow.
"Good, you can leave now, go back and properly memorize your new identity, Lorin Fenryr.." Said Harlack, waving his hand at Lorin for her to leave.